Falling into Obedience

September 28, 2010

Everyone is surprised by how heavy I have been lately.  Isn’t it so exciting?  Publishing and Adopting

But so many things about both blessings are weighty.  I am afraid of my capacity to do all of this, I hate being out there for scrutiny, I am afraid of what writing will mean for my family and so many other things….

So why do it?

What if…

these little acts of obedience were a small part of a matrix of dominoes unfolding the glory of God (small because after all I am a small domino in a huge matrix)…. could He bypass me and find another route? Of course- He is God.

But what if I laid down my life domino and through that unleashed an army of others who laid down and unleashed their obedience and through this matrix- God’s glory was displayed through the laying down of lives in the midst of a generation?

And just in case God has given me these insane opportunities to display His glory, we (my husband and I) feel compelled to obey…. no matter the cost and uncertainty.

Because heaven is coming… and soon none of us will care about any other glory but His anyway.

I have many dominoes that have fallen behind me to allow me to fall….

Watching Jaimie Jo Brainer, Emily Alexander, Katie Davis and our friends the Wheelers fall prepared our heart for falling into adoption.

And too many mentors and friends to mention today have fallen into my life to help me to fall into ministry through writing.  You know who you are.

Thank you!!

We are all dominoes in this… we all have our place in this…. what is yours?

I beg you- all of us- to fall.  Fall into obedience that will shape the glory of God in our generation.  We don’t want to get to heaven and realize we missed it.  God rerouted around us…..

and besides maybe it will be fun!

10 Responses to “Falling into Obedience”

  1. So here’s the thing. I have been searching for my place for so long. Fervently seeking God. When I was in school “getting a career” I was searching. When I was almost done and my second child was three days old my husband told me what God had put on his heart for our family and I cried for two days. In my mind, I was losing the place God had for me in return for the place God had for him. That’s not true. God doesn’t do that. It’s just been in the last few months that I realised, as I prayed and asked God to reveal our ANYTHING. What would surrender like that look like for us. Then I realised that we did the huge terrifying thing that God asked us to do. There will be more things but for now we are in it. We are where we are supposed to be, doing what we are supposed to do. That’s why God isn’t speaking to me in that way. Seeking my place has been a distraction to being in my place.
    I wonder how many others are wasting their place by searching for another one. A while back a friend told me that this is my mission field. I jokingly (because I knew she was right) told her that this isn’t the one I wanted, I didn’t actually really want one. What I wanted was a safe little local mission field that didn’t move around all over the place. As her words grew in my heart I realised that there was more truth than maybe even she knew in her words.
    I hosted an If:Gathering in my home and I was so very frustrated because it was so very small. I didn’t have peace. I reached out to another leader for encouragement, sharing my discouragement with her, and what I got was that maybe I just wasn’t cut out to lead. Maybe I wasn’t, maybe I’m not. What I know now is that I obeyed. I did the thing God asked. I did a lot of things He asked. It’s just that in the in-between I have to remember that I’m not forgotten and not insignificant.
    When God moves in our hearts and gives us a burden for people He doesn’t waste it. So for those who have been searching for a place and feeling like God isn’t moving or working or leading, stop and look around. Did God ask something of you? Did you obey? Because if you didn’t you know it. If that’s not the case just ask Him what He wants you to do today. And if it’s Starbucks with a friend or pajama day with the kids, it’s all important. Some of the most significant moments in my life have been when someone sent me a message on Facebook to ask how I was doing. A blip in their day, an insignificant moment for them was a very important part of mine.
    When we long for the big things God has has in store we have to know that the really big things are the daily, unseen, small things because God’s ways are not our ways. If the world thinks it is big and significant then it probably isn’t.

  2. Amazing analogy. Thank you for sharing your thoughts–the whisperings of the Savior!

  3. For me it’s a bit like standing in line waiting on the Texas Giant–the biggest, baddest roller coaster out there. (I should mention that I HATE ROLLER COASTERS!) But I also don’t want to be left on the sidelines. That likely motivates me as much as anything.

    Falling, and riding roller coasters, requires trust. I think that’s where it all ends up going for me. Do I trust God completely that no matter where he takes me, what he asks of me, that I’ll be able to do it? It’s scary and exciting all at the very same time!

    • Debbie- roller coasters also require a strong stomach- of which I do not have. So I believe in God but roller coasters are still hard for me!

  4. Jennie,
    FYI, because of this post dominos are falling in South Carolina. I forwarded your link to my Bible Study gals and then they have forwarded and lots have been encouraged and pushed forward in faith.
    love you.

  5. What a perfect message for me to hear today. Thanks, Jennie, for opening my eyes to a different way of looking at obedience this afternoon at the exact time I needed to hear it!


  6. Karen friesen

    I’m so afraid of missing it and God “rerouting” around me. Oh but I’m so afraid of God and what it might take to “fall”. I truly don’t know what he has for me but I can tell when I pray that I’m a glued domino because my prayer is often”use me, but not that way.” or “use me, but not in a painful way”. Ugh: stuck! So inspiring and delightful to see God use YOU. I’m inspired and maybe a little less glued down.

  7. Oh, this is my prayer. With interest in my work now I find myself in the waiting room. I want to obey here. I want to trust here. I want to fall here. Fall hard for Him.

    ~ Wendy


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