For the last few months my 9 year old son has had a growing love/ obsession with sports cars. Like a different language he rattles off the detailed names of cars like Porshe carrera gt 24867.... ok well something like that. It is astounding the amount of cars that are already in his head. My Dad loves cars and one of my son's best friends loves cars and it is a simple fun hobby. In fact, this friend and my son have conspired to go in together at 16 and share a Lamborghini Diablo... I think it is about a $300,000 + car. Of course they are just dreaming and being little American boys. And yet with all that God has been doing in me- the car talk has not settled with me. But I couldn't articulate why.

I bleed for God and His hurting people- but I am still Jennie- I am not a lick of legalistic about it- shoot- don't tell me I can't get a pedicure! I can't stomach legalism a lot more than I can't stomach $300,000 for a car. So if it wasn't materialistic legalism, what was this feeling?

Thankfully today as he was talking about the cars again... words came. I shared with him that I love his passion for cars- it has given him and my dad something special to share and talk about. But when his appreciation for something becomes something he has to own someday with such a large price tag.... my stomach turns over for children who would never dream of owning a $10 soccer ball.

"Dream bigger dreams, my love. Dream better dreams."

We are never content with metal or diamonds. Redemption changed the goal. Our purpose is no longer to gather-but to give. We will itch inside until we live for more than the gathering. But sadly, we will test that truth by gathering till we have it all and the truth is proven at the cost of the mission of our lives.

I so relate to the quote below, that while my prosperity is a gift- I am the dispenser of my gift. I am the channel through which others will prosper. I can take what I need and even enough for some fun and memories and experiences.... but I have hands, feet, internet, planes, resources, the Gospel, money so that through me God can recklessly save, recklessly heal, recklessly love.

We want God to knock out suffering and poverty- ironically He gave us just about all we need to do it.

"What, therefore, is our task today? Should I answer "Faith, hope and love?" That sounds beautiful. But I would say - courage. No, even that is not challenging enough to be the whole truth. Our task today is recklessness. For what we Christians lack is not psychology or literature... we lack a holy rage - the recklessness which comes from the knowledge of God and humanity. The ability to rage when justice lies prostrate on the streets, and when the lie rages across the face of the earth... a holy anger about the things that are wrong in the world. To rage against the ravaging of God's earth and and the destruction of God's people. To rage when little children must die of hunger, while the tables of the rich are sagging with food. To rage at the senseless killing of so many, and the madness of militaries. To rage against the lie that calls the threat of death and the strategy of destruction peace. To rage against COMPLACENCY. To restlessly seek that recklessness that will challenge and seek to change human history until it conforms to the norms of the kingdom of God."

-Father Kaj Munk, 1944

Spoke to me from Katie's blog~